One day, I woke early to watch the sunrise. As I watched, I praised God for His Beautiful Work. As I sat there, I felt the Lords presence with me. He asked me, "Do you love me?" I answered, "Of course, God! You are my Lord and Savior!" Then He asked me, "
If you were physically handicapped, would you still love me?"
I was puzzled. I looked down at my arms, legs and the rest of my body and wondered how many things I would not be able to do, things I took for granted. I answered, "It would be tough Lord, but I would still love you."
Then the Lord said, "
If you were blind, would you still love my creation?"
How could I love something without being able to see it? Then I thought of all the blind people in the world and how many of them still loved God and His Creation. So I answered, "Its hard to think of it, but I would still love your creation."
Then the Lord asked me, "
If you were deaf, would you still listen to my Word?"
How could I listen to anything being deaf? Then I understood. Listening to Gods Word is not merely using our ears, but our Hearts as well. I answered, "It would be tough, but I would still listen to your Word."
Then the Lord asked me, "
If you were mute, would you still praise My Name?"
How could I praise without a voice? Then it occurred to me: God wants me to sing from my very Heart and Soul. Praising God is not only with a song, but also when we suffer, we need to give God the Glory and Honor with our words of Thanksgiving to Him through our difficulties. So I answered, "Though I could not physically sing, I would still praise Your Name.
And then the Lord asked again, "
Do you REALLY love Me?" With courage and strong conviction, I boldly answered, "Yes, Lord! I love you because you are the only one and true God!" I thought I had answered well, but God asked, "
Then why do you sin?" I answered, "Because I am only human, I am not perfect."
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Then why in times of peace do you stray the furthest?"
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Why only in times of trouble do you pray most earnestly?"
(No answers, only tears.)
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Why dont you have a song in your Heart every minute of every day?"
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Why do you seek me only in times of worship?"
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Why do you only ask for things for yourself?"
(The tears continued to roll down my cheeks.)
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Why are you ashamed to tell others of My Love for them?"
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Why do you hide your candle under a basket rather than letting it shine for all to see?"
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Why do you seek me only when times are hard?"
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Why do you make excuses when I gave my everything for you?"
(I tried to answer, but nothing came forth.)
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I have blessed you with life, and you have thrown away this gift."
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I have blessed you with talents to serve me, but you have been too busy".
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I have revealed my Word to you, but you do not gain in wisdom."
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I have spoken to you, but your ears were closed."
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I have shown you many Blessings, but your eyes turned away."
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I have sent you helpers, but you sat by as they were pushed away."
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Yet, in spite of all this, I have heard your prayers and answered them all."
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Do you TRULY love Me?"
I could not answer. I was embarrassed beyond belief. I had no excuse. What could I say to this? After my Heart broke and the tears flowed, I said "Please forgive me Lord. I am unworthy to be your child."
The Lord answered, "
That is my grace, my child"
I asked, "
Then why do you continue to forgive me? Why do you love me so?"
The Lord answered, "
Because you are my creation and my child. I will never leave you nor forsake you. When you cry, I will have compassion and cry with you. When you shout with joy, I will celebrate with you. When you are discouraged, I will encourage you.. When you fall, I will raise you up. When you are tired, I will carry you. I am with you always, until the end of time. I will love you forever."
Never had I cried so hard. How could I have been so cold? How could I have hurt God as I had done? I asked God, "
How much do you love me?"
The Lord stretched out his arms and I saw his nail pierced hands. I bowed down before my Sovereign Savior and truly prayed for the first time in my life.
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